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sahil+sandhu · New Member Joined: 10 Mar 2005 Posts: 2

Hi All,

I am a 42-year old man who has suffered from servere depression, anxiety and panic for most of my life. I was always very sad and sensitive even as a child. When I was 36, I was diagnosed as clinically depressed. A few months ago that diagnosis was changed to bi-polar 2. I actually had to figure that out for myself after my former psychiatrist had me up an already too high dose of antidepressants. It drove me completely batty because I never should've been on standard antidepressants to begin with.

Now, a few months and a new doctor later, I am on Lithosor. I feel different than before, but this bi-polar thing is really something else. Up and down and up and down and up and down...I feel like a basketball with too much air in it.

Anyway, I'm not here just looking for support, but to offer it. I have spent a LOT of time researching this stuff, years. I seem to attract people to my life with similar brain chemistries, and I've learned a lot from them as well. That probably comes from being very open and unapologetic about it. Why should I be ashamed of this? I didn't ask for this.

I have no shame...LOL. I also have a bit of an attitude problem, which actually helps me with this. I don't care what the world thinks of me. I do the best I can with what I've been given.

To anyone who thinks they are alone, know this: NOT EVEN CLOSE. There are millions of us, everywhere and in all walks of life. There are also many. many forms that depression can take, so it's not always obvious.

iwannabehappy · New Member Joined: 03 May 2006 Posts: 5 Location: U.S.A

Hi! Hats off to you for spending pretty much ur whole life with such a disease. I don't know how can you be so open about it. But its good. Depression entered my life when iwas 15, now I am 22. Before me & my family thought that it was a temp problem but now me & my family realise that i have a disease. The medications were working fine for me & iwas able to go to college but the past 3 months have been weird. Lots of ups & downs. Feeling good sometimes & the next moment i will be sad. I even changed my doctor. She put me more on psychotic drugs. But nothing helps. Now I have been self - diagnosing that I have bipolar. I don't know what to do. I don't have any manias but i do get depressed a lot. Should I talk to my doc? Please suggest.